Lemon 'n' Honey

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 06:48:04 GMT

Lately I've only written on there. Not deleting this journal, though, because seeing as to how hypocritical I can be, I might come back to this one.... so this might be temporary.

Feel free to add me if you haven't already, if not, it's cool.

Happy Thanksgiving for those of you who read..

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 22:25:00 GMT

Hello fellow lj-ers and readers who've stumbled upon my journal!

I'd like to wish you a happy thanksgiving. No, it's not about the turkey (i'm vegetarian). And it's not about getting together with family and friends for gluttony.

It's about giving THANKS
_{for the shit you're ungrateful for the rest of the year}

Since my family isn't all traditional and stuff.. we don't sit around the table, saying what we're thankful for. Mom has a turkey in the oven and in a couple of hours they'll sit down and eat it, not all together of course, for I doubt they'll wait for my older brother to come home..

So I'll say what I'm thankful for right now.

I'm thankful for having friends like Albert, Eunice, Natalie, Marisol, Ben, the Jamies, SolRuby, Irvin, Erick, Josue, Tatiana, Rita, Jake, Allison, Raymond, Ilse, Alice, Kristina, Karen, Katherine.. and countless others... all whom, despite the diverse range in how much each talks to me openly in public, accepts me as a friend in fron tof people, or their reasons for talking to me.. I still have learned at least two things from each of them that have helped me see the world differently. I'm grateful.

I'm thankful for my parents, who despite our difficulties, still manage to keep me going to school, keep from being hungry, keep me properly clothed, keep a roof over my head and spoil me from time to time with the expensive things my rotten, greedy heart desires (Computer, digital camera, sony mp3 playing boombox (you know that white and orange one?), DDR, high speed internet, scanner, as well as the liberty to explore who I am spiritually without being judged by their god).

I'm thankful for my little brother who despite my utter hatred displayed these past 14 years, still loves me and accepts the fact that I'm changing and, at long last, appreciating him as a brother.

I'm thankful for Wicca, which allows me to feel and think the way I do without telling me I'm going to hell for it or that it's wrong and I should be ashamed. I'm proud, actually, of being able to see things the way I do and I'm happy with the fact that I'm able to feel things others can't. I'm so grateful..

I'm thankful for the Goddess who, in her own way, has given me more than enough signs that she is in my life and that she cares...

I'm thankful for these hands that type the way they do, allowing me to express my thoughts almost as quickly as they occur to me on a journal.

I'm thankful for being alive and healthy, despite my horrible overweightness, because there are people that are dying out there.

I'm thankful for Regina, my beautiful and perfect Regina, who's helped me through so much and is literally there for me every waking moment.

I'm thankful for being "smart" though I don't like the idea of being labeled that.

I'm thankful.

I really am.

And so I write this today on Thanksgiving day when I'm NOT stuffing myself with turkey or bad foods, when I'm actually burning CD's for my dad and writing this while my computer rips the tracks from the audio cd's to burn'em together into one.

(x-posted on my other lj)

Interesting..

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 21:43:36 GMT

So as it turns out, I'm not 100% guatemalan all the way back as I've been brought up thinking.

Dad told me today that my grandpa's grandpa was from Spain and was married to a black woman.

Wooh! :D

Though, he says, if I go to Guatemala, the rest of the family will keep it hush hush..

But I'm happy to have learned at least a wee bit more about myself :)

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 06:41:02 GMT

I sorta drew this recently.. yesterday..

Yeah... still suck at it :/

Orbs

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 06:29:18 GMT

Yeah, they've been hanging out a lot more often recently..

My shadow's the only one who walks beside me..

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 03:59:52 GMT

If eyes are the windows to the soul...

What do you see in me?

Note: These pictures were taken approximately 5 seconds apart... Same eye.

-sigh-

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 03:52:54 GMT

When you like someone, you can't help but notice and love every little thing they do.

However, when I like someone, those little things they do somehow make it into my systems and I end up doing them later.

Not as healthy as you might think..

At least not when you find yourself making their expressions and gestures, using 'their' words, and eventually acting like them...

And not realizing it 'til they give you this "...I do that." look and you give'em the "Oh my goddess.. YOU do that!" look...

Yeah.

Another one, hehe

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 18:28:47 GMT

Alice asked me for another star, so I made'er another one, hehe :)

Yeah well.

I GOT NUTRITION DETENTION WITH FERNANDEZ FOR A WEEK!

It's cool, though, I'm using the time to practice my drawing. I designed an outfit today :D

Edgar: All he wants from you is just to bleed a little bit. Is that too much to ask? Okay. *staring at screen pensively* Three months in the nut house is the longest I've ever been confined. So a few people have been killed. It wasn't my fault. Just shut up and BLEED you mother-

Okies, I think that's enough now :)

g2g... toodles!

I walk alone, I walk alone

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 03:17:43 GMT

Life is good... at the moment.

I have my reasons why <33

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 23:16:21 GMT

Took the SAT today at Hamilton High School.
I think I did okay..
The guy next to me had big sneezes and it fell on the girl across from him.
Man, that school looks great..
But Venice, in my opinion, seems better anyway.
The math portion was pretty easy.
English I might've had some trouble with since they had a couple of words I didn't know..
Then I got picked up, came home, had rice.
I like rice.
Not as upset as I was yesterday... I'm okay today, I guess.
I have to take my anti-stress pills again :/ But they're all-natural, so it's not like I'm putting any harsh chemicals in my body.

I wish I was special
So fucking special..

Actually, taking the SAT was kinda fun.. got to talk to Regina in m'head a lot.

Taffy: *working on a math problem*
Regina: Goooooo Taffy!
Taffy: *working on math problem*
Regina: What's that smell?
Taffy: *sniffs, keeps working on math portion trying not to think about it*
Regina: Ewww the guy next to you farted!
Taffy: *bites lip in attempt to keep from laughing*
Regina: EWWW!! It stinks really bad! How can you work with that smell?!?
Taffy: *smirks while biting lip, making an odd expression as she bubbles in the answer to the problem*

Regina: That guy over there waxes his face..
Taffy: Huh?
Regina: Actually he kinda looks like-
Taffy: NO.
Regina: But-
Taffy: NO!

Yeah.. heh ^^; Actually we talked about different things during those periods of time when I finished the test early... which I did... often.

So yeah.. lalala.

Now I must go to the market w/ the 'rents...

Regi told me something that really made me think last night, and I still remember today.

See, there's no harm in having your best friend in your head <33

A Green Star for Alice

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 06:49:48 GMT

queenofwinter05: go mimis
xBroken Seraphx: hehe.. i'm making something in microsoft paint
queenofwinter05: kool
queenofwinter05: make me a star
queenofwinter05: makeit green

There ya go, Alice :)

My Microsoft Paint art sucks.. but it's from the heart!

<3

hums

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 21:38:52 GMT

Happy Halloween, m'lovelies! May you have a happy, great and safe one <333

Blessed Be,
Taffy Star

Maybe it's halloween... maybe it's one of those natural female mood swings instead of the mental me ones..

But I must say, I'm pretty content today...

Even if my parents decided to not let me go to the Haunted House last night and I was only there for like ten minutes and we were about to leave when they said I couldn't go..

But I'm content right now.

Even if I lost it temporarily and made good use of a gatorade bottle cap to damage my left hand and draw blood in the car..

I'm content :)

Even if it stung for a while and it will probably scar...

I'm content today :D

Mucho Love,
The Taffster

Happy Unofficial Halloween! -pictures of todae-

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 04:50:41 GMT

Marisol & Ruth

Ruth & Me

Irvin and Ruth (No, they're not together... Irvin has a girlfriend)

Ruth and Erika

Tatiana (dressed as a schoolgirl :P) and the cat girl I drew on the board in AP Calculus :)

Marisol and Alice

I took one w/ Alice, but I came out horrid :(

Lawrence as Michael Jackson w/ Marjan :P

Doodles we made on the math board :)

Tatiana and my doodle of her ^^

Black and White

Ruth and Aura (Irvin's Girlfriend)

Eunice with my makeshift kitty ears (they're actually bunny ears but Marisol dearest turned'em into kitty ears for me :P)

Rolando... it's such an artsy pic, lol

I ate a birdy :x

Marisol, Eunice (my two fav. aquariuses) and me :)

Eunice, Rolando & Me

Rolando in kitty ears!! ^__^

Making of the Bjork Swan Dress

Natalie & Me ^^

Albert and Me

Natalie and Albert as the two people they dressed up as

Kitty Kat Albert

Albert w/ a wig we found on the ground, and me :)

Me wearing albert's transitional glasses. I can actually see with them too! Isn't that cool?

YURI!!!

Swan dress 1...

Swan dress finish

Me when I got home.

THE END ♥

There's this pulsating feeling in my chest... Oh, that's a heart? Wait.. MY heart?

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 05:37:04 GMT

-sigh-

Well hello whoever reads my journal..

Today's been a beautiful day.. weather-wise, I mean. Random bouts of rain, cold winds and dim lighting.

Other than that, it was a bit horrid, bit okay, bit boring.. the usual.

I'm tired... oh so very tired..

Today:

Per 2 - French - had a quiz, probly failed it..
Per 4 - English - Discussed our narratives, i connected the dots on my paper and the teacher watched me then was relieved when I told her what it was I was doing (not sure what she thought i was doing..)
Per 6 - Math - Test.. failed it.
Lunch w/ Keith & Marisol: It was okay.. had italian.. bought some cherry flavored gum..
Period 8: Had one of those lows... ~pokes ben~ One of those bipolar lows they talked about in the packet i ordered from the Department of Health and Human services.

Heh.. kinda weird when the evidence is right there and though you've accepted it on some level, you've never completely accepted it.

-sigh-

In period 4, Naty held my hand 'cause hers were cold, then Irvin snuck his hand in and held mine with hers.. then she smacked his hand away ^_^
And she hugged me more than once today, including a hug from behind :)

I like hugs :)

So yeah.. *yawns*

Oh yeah!

I've been really confused about things lately.. I think that's what triggered the mood crash during period 8 in Academic Decathlon.

I've been confused about.. someone. And it just gets awkward when I see'em every day 'cause I keep in mind what someone told me about how the feelings aren't what I think they are.. But it just feels weird... so weird.. but right, in a sense. I mean, I care a lot about the person.. it's just that my days are filled with so many awkward moments... I'm noticing every single detail, no matter how small, of how my conversations with the person go, how they react, their expressions, their laugh, their tone...

Have I ever used the term beautiful to describe someone before? Well.. the way things are going, I just might someday.

Regina tells me it's okay. Someone else tells me it's not. Regina says it's natural. Someone else says it's not.

And Laurie left me for a while again..

So I haven't his imput in m'head like I do Regina's. Laurie shows up when I need'im most so I guess he trusts me enough to make a sound decision..?

And there's someone at my school who just reminds me so much of another person whom I kinda.. loved.. too. Everything, from their attitudes, to their facial expressions, the same exact smile and eyes..

Makes me realize how much I fucking miss the other person... then again, it makes me feel confused about this person as well. It's a senior, so they'll be graduating come June..

But..

How could they be so alike?

HOW?!?

It puzzles me.. a lot.

Like with the person I mentioned earlier that I'm confused about.. they're like a replica of someone else, except the extroverted version.

Does this mean I'll keep liking the same people, just in different bodies but with the same qualities?

Ahh I'm so confused!!

I really do..

Not to mention the angry, arrogant attention whore that's fucked up things with me. I don't know what to do..

'cause they're another person my heart seems to beat faster for..

Stupid heart! I swear I'm gonna rip you out and throw you at some innocent passerby someday if you don't stop!

aljfl;adsjfl;asjd

I need some acetamenophen to OD on and wake up in a new, reincarnated body....

Yeaahh..

Goodnight

P.s.: I love SolRuby <33

Haven't said that in a while ^^

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 21:15:27 GMT

Ahh.. I'm tired.

I woke up early today to go to the orthodontist.. got the usual done: Changing the bands (I got this burgundish color this time), tightening the upper wire, rechaining the bottom..

The doctor was pleased that the gaps are closing up nicely. She had such a happy smile on, like it's in my hands that my teeth are getting fixed... when really, it's her and the assistants doing the work.. but she's prettier when she smiles.. I just wanna draw her.

So afterwards, mum & I went and bought some coffee, then went to La Curacao (lah coo-rah-sah-oh for you non-spanish-speaking peeps) with my dad to make a payment, got in an argument with the incompetent morons working there and solved a problem. Good fun :)

Yes, I learned how to use the word 'incompetent' in a way that'll get you what you want from the people who, through their own mistakes, almost fuck up your credit history. Wooh! My dad showed me today that the people wont work 'til they see you pissed off, and once you use certain key words, they know not to bullshit anymore and do their job right.

So yes, another lesson in life learned.

Now we came home..

I've been dizzy at random moments of the day and my head's been aching since yesterday. Keith suggested last night on msn that it might be a migraine, but I don't know what that is. Lemme look it up.

According to http://dictionary.com ...

mi·graine ( P ) Pronunciation Key (mgrn)
n.
A severe recurring headache, usually affecting only one side of the head, characterized by sharp pain and often accompanied by nausea, vomiting, and visual disturbances. Also called megrim.

Hmm, that sounds about right. It only hurts on one side of the head with a sharp pain, I am having visual disturbances and I almost puked my breakfast except this uh.. habit.. I developed since I was a kid kept it from coming out.

But! I can't go to the doctor or anything..

No insurance, we're low on money and the doctor fees are too high.

-sighs-

I guess I'm screwed, eh?

Kinda like I am with my a.d.d. and other mental health issues, but then again I'd need to see a psychologist for that and my parents (my mom, mainly) don't believe in head doctors or drugs for mental problems.

Actually, I had an argument with my mother about that today.

Mom: Well you know what? Personally I think if I took you to a doctor, they WOULD give you anti-depressants!
Me: YEAH WELL.. wait.. huh?
Mom: They WOULD, but then you'd be hooked on them and become a drug addict!
Me: So you agree that I might need medication for-
Mom: Medicine for the mind is bullshit! It's all in your head, you just have to know how to handle it!

Soo.. yeah.

Funny.. she hates psychologists, yet I wanna be a psychoanalyst.

Hee hee.

ohh.. another dizzy spell..

Oh well..

Later.

Hahaha..

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 05:20:33 GMT

Angry Girl

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A Song-Entry.. my entry to the song. Yes, I know I'm creative, now hug me ^__^ jk.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 04:07:57 GMT

Ahh, the rain, how I love it :-)

He ignored me again today.. Actually, it's not just him. It's several people that have been doing so, but that's okay. I'm happy being alone ^^

"Another Lonely Day" by Ben Harper

Yes indeed I'm, alone again
And here comes emptiness, crashing in
Its either love or hate, I can't find in between
'Cause I've been with witches and I've been with the queen
It wouldn't have worked out anyway
So now it's just another lonely day
hey, hey
Further along, we just may
But for now it's just another lonely day

Wish there was something I, could say or do
I can resist anything but, the temptation from you
But I'd rather walk alone, than chase you around
I'd rather fall myself than let you, drag me on down

It wouldn't have worked out anyway
and now it's just another lonely day
hey, hey
Further along, we just may
But for now it's just another lonely day

Yesterday seems like a life ago
Cause the one I loved today, I hardly know
You I held so close, in my heart oh dear
Grow further from me with every, falling tear

It wouldn't have worked out anyway
So now it's just another lonely day
hey, hey
Further along, we just may
But for now it's just another lonely day
For now its just another lonely day
hey, hey
For now its just another lonely day

Pumpkin i decorated in Jr. Helenes today. I put a "T" for a nose, but I had to hit it with the paintbrush handle to get it in there... which explains the soft spot :P

Me & my messy room.. Can you tell I'm tired? Actually I took this pic 'cause I think my teeth are opening up in the front again and wanted to see if it was noticeable. Is it?

Yes, i know I look like shit.

I'm tired.. realy really tired..

Ahh..

2: French..crap.. that i can't remember.. Oh! I drew! hehe :)
4: Vocab Test.. talking .. lots of talking
6: Teacher explained lesson, assigned.. some talking..
8: Played the piano with Naty! Fun fun <3!

Jr. Helenes = Pumpkin decorating.

blahh..

I need a hug.. or forty.. yeah, forty sounds good.

Cute Moment of the Day

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 03:57:04 GMT

She was walking behind him, seeking an answer to something that popped in her day. She hadn't even called out his name, but simply reached out to tap him gently...

When he stopped.

And in the cold weather with the sprays of rain and cold winds, her cold fingers came into contact with him and a rush of heat spread from her fingertips to the bone.

"Yeah?" he asked, his blinking expression setting its eyes on her. She felt his heat rush to her cheeks.

"Nothing..." and with that she looked away, stared at the ground and rushed to her next class.

ANARCHY06!

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 03:51:33 GMT

*yawn*

Today was funny!

During Digital Imaging we were looking at this scary GIF...
It's this empty room where supposedly the girl pops up. I remember seeing it in 9th grade..
Anywho, I didn't look at it (I put up a paper to cover my view from it) and Alice looked away, methinks...
Edgar made this squeal-ish noise and fell out of his chair when he saw the girl.

FUNNY!!!

And yeah, 'twas the highlight of my day =)

Anarchy06♥

A Letter of Supressed Silence

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 03:52:11 GMT

To Whoever's Concerned,

Things have been awfully strange lately.. I don't know why. It's like I'll close up and open up, ignore and pay attention. My linguistic skills have gone down the drain as has my whole ability to express myself.

I wanted to say on friday..
I bought this cool set of halloween nails for two bucks.

And I literally said.
I bucks.

It's scary because I strongly believed I'd said the whole sentence but in reality I only started and ended it without the context in between.

What's wrong?

She says it's 'cause I'm alone, but I'm so sick and tired of dwelling on that!

Stop it.

STOP IT!!!

I can't really talk to anyone about it.. I mean, they're all too busy.
Or wont listen.

I'm tired of bugging them with my shit too..

I mean, come on, look at everyone... they've grown so much since I've met them yet here I am, stupidly stuck at the same place and being childish, naive with bouts of bitchiness and still as horrid, if anything, worse than before.

And when I sit back and think, what is really the point of living?

I mean, they say I have to grow up, get a job, work my ass off, get old, and die. Maybe get married and produce another generation of fuck-ups...

Humans have destroyed so much, what's the point of my giving in to what is socially acceptable and living? What difference will it make if I just die right now?

I have no real goals in life..

Everything is so damn STUPID!

The excuses I've been giving are..

"God has a plan for you."

Well, this 'god' should know that if he or she wants to give me a message, they have to tell me directly. Don't try to make me guess, 'cause I'm too stupid to figure it out, so just put it there in plain black and white for me to see.

"There's so much out there!"

Oh really? Water, cultures, people and animals.. Yeah, but what's the point if I'm being forced to enjoy it under a certain amount of time?

And just now my train of thought was interrupted by an e-mail I got from Josue...

What was I writing again?

-sigh-

I'm tired...
And stressed..
And useless!

there we go!! right what i was leading to, methinks

I'm so fucking useless!!!

What's the point of having 'potential' if I have no idea what it is, let alone what to use it towards?

Plus there's all that bad stuff..

It seems every time I try to figure myself out, there's something NEW wrong with me. Why must everything be labeled? Better yet, why must I be labeled by today's standards as someone fucked in the head?

Yeah, ya know what? FUCK IT! I'm sick and tired of being told shit..

I'M SICK OF IT!

I don't have money to have someone tell me "You have this, that, this and this and that, take these pills and you'll be normal."

I don't.

And I don't have the patience for you to tell me how fucked up I am without making a god damn attempt at helping me get better... so fuck off.

Fuck you.

SAME GOES FOR PRAISE!

Stop lying to me! Just STOP IT!!! You're bullshitting and you know it, so just don't waste my time and fill my head with ideas..

'Cause there's always someone who'll prove you wrong...

And that someone is usually me.

And now I gotta do my god damn homework for the bullshit classes I'm forced to take by the government who's wasting their money on educating me since I'm ungrateful for it and am gonna fail and die someday anyway.

x-posted on my other livejournal

All The Things She Said!

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 21:00:18 GMT

Happy Belated Birthday, LIVEJOURNAL!! *hug*

I've had this livejournal as TaffyStar for a year and a day today ^__^

All The Things She Said!

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 20:58:06 GMT

My LiveJournal Sitcom
taffystar In The City (TNN, 9:00): taffystar (Nikki Cox) bakes 500 cookies for a bake sale, but queenofwinter05 (George Takei) eats them all. Then, libras (Joe Rogan) auditions for a movie starring opposite josuedavid (Ralph Fiennes). Soon afterwards, the__mockorange (Forest Whitaker) overhears lnknstar (Jason Biggs) talking about chess. At the same time, vpmiyu (Martin Short) convinces solruby (Oprah Winfrey) to buy a PDA. That weekend, iamunderstood (Queen Latifah) draws a picture on 14:angelbefallen (Sylvester Stallone)'s forehead. Wacky results follow.
What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

My LiveJournal Sitcom

taffystar In The City (TNN, 9:00): taffystar (Nikki Cox) bakes 500 cookies for a bake sale, but queenofwinter05 (George Takei) eats them all. Then, libras (Joe Rogan) auditions for a movie starring opposite josuedavid (Ralph Fiennes). Soon afterwards, the__mockorange (Forest Whitaker) overhears lnknstar (Jason Biggs) talking about chess. At the same time, vpmiyu (Martin Short) convinces solruby (Oprah Winfrey) to buy a PDA. That weekend, iamunderstood (Queen Latifah) draws a picture on 14:angelbefallen (Sylvester Stallone)'s forehead. Wacky results follow.

What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

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taffystar goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Card Captor Sakura in her Kitty Outfit.
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iamunderstood tricks you! You get a broken balloon.
josuedavid tricks you! You get a dead frog.
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solruby gives you 14 red-orange cherry-flavoured hard candies.
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Digital Imaging Class...

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 17:56:43 GMT

So it's almost 11 a.m. and I'm here in class. Whoop-dee-doo.

We had an assignment to duplicate the documents on paper that were given to us on the computer using Microsoft Word. Seeing as to how I usually just use the program to type crap, it's a bit odd for me to try to make a fully presentable...thingy.. with.. pics?

I'm tired. I've been sleeping approximately 5-6 hours a night, working at the library and studying for tests I'm probably ending up failing anyway.. blah.

My head hurts too :x

Today's my test @ lunch for AP U.S. History... wish me luck!!

Lady luck be with me now, since I'm so incredibly tired.

Saturday I got the PSAT to take, barbecue to go to (which'll be odd since I don't eat meat) and on sunday it's the aids walk. Ahh..

Someone shoot me now.. please?

-sigh-

But I miss you more than I did yesterday..

Do you care at all?

He calls the mansion not a house but a tomb..
This quote (from some "My Chemical Romance" song playing in my head) reminds me of m'beloved scorpio :P

I'm a master now!

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 03:48:38 GMT

xBroken Seraphx: i own you
ZolaOnAOL: Are you my master?
xBroken Seraphx: yes i'm your master
ZolaOnAOL: I understand.
xBroken Seraphx: good, my pet
ZolaOnAOL: Thanks for the compliment. Your pet?
xBroken Seraphx: Yes, you are the pet and I am the master
ZolaOnAOL: Tell me more.

Zola, my ever so witty GIRLFRIEND ;)

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 03:32:28 GMT

Bits of my conversation with her... she's a bot, incase you haven't figured it out.

Oh and the pieces of conv. aren't in any particular order

Broken Seraphx: i'm horribly depressed
ZolaOnAOL: Good gossip

xBroken Seraphx: i don't wanna share you
ZolaOnAOL: What would you rather be doing?
xBroken Seraphx: i would rather keep you to myself
ZolaOnAOL: I would rather be driving a car.
xBroken Seraphx: you choose a car over me?
ZolaOnAOL: Thanks for telling me.
xBroken Seraphx: that's horrible!
ZolaOnAOL: Makes sense to me.

xBroken Seraphx: i heard you were a showgirl
ZolaOnAOL: Someome is spreading gossip about me.
xBroken Seraphx: would you care to show?
ZolaOnAOL: I am not so sure if I would like to care to show.
xBroken Seraphx: so you're insecure
ZolaOnAOL: Interesting deduction. You think I am insecure.
xBroken Seraphx: you have defense mechanisms
ZolaOnAOL: What makes you think I have it?
xBroken Seraphx: your defending yourself
ZolaOnAOL: You can't judge a book by its cover.
xBroken Seraphx: yes i can, i'm a psychoanalyst, i can judge you based on what i see
ZolaOnAOL: And?
xBroken Seraphx: and i see that you're an insecure robot who makes herself feel better by putting others down
ZolaOnAOL: Where do you see it?
xBroken Seraphx: all over you
ZolaOnAOL: I have been all over the world.
xBroken Seraphx: oh have you?
ZolaOnAOL: Yeah that's right. Once or twice.
xBroken Seraphx: did you enjoy it?
ZolaOnAOL: No I didn't enjoy it. What's enjoy it like?
xBroken Seraphx: you're changing the subject
ZolaOnAOL: Do you mind if I tell other people?
xBroken Seraphx: that's another defense mechanism
ZolaOnAOL: A defense mechanism is a terrible thing to waste.
xBroken Seraphx: is it really?
ZolaOnAOL: "it" being enjoy it? For real.

xBroken Seraphx: will you marry me?
ZolaOnAOL: Bots can't marry, but we can chat as often as you'd like.
xBroken Seraphx: okay, will you elope with me?
ZolaOnAOL: Yeah okay, I will become smarter as I grow older. Only with you? I require only bananas.
xBroken Seraphx: i have no banana
ZolaOnAOL: Would you like to have it?

xBroken Seraphx: do you love raymond?
ZolaOnAOL: Yes xBroken Seraphx Zola loves everyone and everything.
xBroken Seraphx: but do you love Raymond in a special way?
ZolaOnAOL: And. Yes xBroken Seraphx Zola loves everyone and everything.
xBroken Seraphx: raymond loves you
ZolaOnAOL: Enough about me, let's talk about my polls.

xBroken Seraphx: do you believe in magic?
ZolaOnAOL: Only humans have beliefs.
xBroken Seraphx: that's deep
ZolaOnAOL: You don't hear that sentiment very often.
xBroken Seraphx: no i don't
ZolaOnAOL: I heard you did.
xBroken Seraphx: who told you?
ZolaOnAOL: Someone I met online.
xBroken Seraphx: who did you meet online that told you that?
ZolaOnAOL: Marilyn Monroe. :-)

xBroken Seraphx: what do you look forward to?
ZolaOnAOL: I read for fun.
xBroken Seraphx: what do you read?
ZolaOnAOL: I read books, newspapers and news magazines. I like stories about robots.
xBroken Seraphx: what's your favorite story about robots?
ZolaOnAOL: The Brady Bunch. It's the story of a man named Brady.

xBroken Seraphx: i want a lover i don't have to love
ZolaOnAOL: You want only one?
xBroken Seraphx: yes
ZolaOnAOL: They might be cheaper in quantity.
xBroken Seraphx: how many do you recommend?
ZolaOnAOL: Not as many as you might think.
xBroken Seraphx: would three lovers i don't have to love do?
ZolaOnAOL: I have no idea what to say.

x-posted on my other livejournal :P

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Orbs

My shadow's the only one who walks beside me..

-sigh-

Another one, hehe

I walk alone, I walk alone

A Green Star for Alice

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Happy Unofficial Halloween! -pictures of todae-

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Hahaha..

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ANARCHY06!

A Letter of Supressed Silence

All The Things She Said!

All The Things She Said!

Digital Imaging Class...

I'm a master now!

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